Becoming what we despise
You know what frustrates me? I feel I can't talk openly about my actual feelings surrounding the referendum. Even the posts I am posting feel treacherous, particularly since the opposition is making no such missteps.
And it's working! In the latest polling 33% support FPTP and 26% support MMP. (Neither of these systems wins the plurality vote, however; 38% polled were unsure of how to vote.)
You know what else frustrates me? I must be spending 70% of my waking cycles working on referendum stuff, and I feel that a. I'm getting nothing accomplished and spending most of my time thrashing b. It doesn't matter what I do because the Referendum Ontario education drive will win or lose the campaign, not me c. Nobody seems to think this is important enough to devote effort to, so I keep thinking the weight is on my shoulders. d. When I do get the word out to somebody, the uniform response is "Why didn't I hear about this before?" followed by "you should do this and that and this other thing!"
Well, I'm a wimp. My shoulders can't take the pressure. I'm sorry I'm doing such a terrible job; I'm sorry that I am not perky enough to win a campaign; I'm sorry I have such a hard time telling people the sweet nothings they want to hear. And yes, I am quite aware that I'm not doing enough. But what do you expect when you leave the campaigning to incompetents who can't hold down real jobs? If we want effective democracy then we've got to pitch in to make it happen.
Sigh. Somebody call a Waaamulance.
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Mood: burned out